.Faery Fiasco

Sometimes, being a parent is just hard.

That, or sometimes I just screw it up.

Or both.

Thankfully I have a wonderful relationship with my kids so if I do anything to scar them, maybe they will forgive me later in professional counselling. ;]

So, as for the title of the post! Ms. Olivia lost her 5th tooth!

[may I interject I don't remember all of my teeth falling out super close together. Then again, I really only remember 2 tooth instances, so apparently the others weren't that exciting]

It's the third tooth she has lost at school.  They come home with them in this cute little "tooth necklace" [not pictured, and you will know why later!].

Well the last lost tooth, Olivia wanted to "clean" it for the tooth faery after I adamently explained she had her own tooth cleaning machine and would take care of it.

"But Mom, she shouldn't touch other people's blood. That's gross and has germs"

Mmk.

You know the story. Small child, running water, teeeeny tiny tooth. Down the drain it went.

And Olivia was crushed.

But she has this fun little ritual of writing to every made up holiday creature [IE: Santa, Easter Bunny, Tooth Faery..] Each one gets their note, cookies [or a carrot, or a tooth] and those silly creatures continue to write her back on scraps of paper in handwriting that looks nothing like Mom's.

It's a sweet tradition and I cherish it.

So last time she wrote Ms. Faery explaining about her tooth and the drain and gave her directions to find it in which bathroom, etc. It was hilarious. She was soo excited to find her note the next morning with the Faery dictating how fun the drain was to "slide down like a waterslide" and she got the tooth and it's safe and sound and yada yada. She hasn't stopped talking about it.

So this tooth, bless it, was lost on a playdate with their Papa and Brenda.  Brenda wasn't able to bring herself to tell Olivia of said lost tooth [she was in charge of the tooth necklace while fun was being had] and said she was going to "show it to Mom when she gets home and Mom will put it under the pillow"... Nice save. Except Mom forgot. And Mom left Olivia's note to the Faery and the empty bag and some forgotten bills... on the kitchen table.  Very... "Un Faery Like"

The look on Olivia's face as she gathered these bits and pieces that should be neatly tucked under her pillow tied up with a cute ribbon and a fancy note or something. She said,

"Man the tooth Faery must have been in a hurry! but Mom, why wouldn't she have wrote me back?"

So one last time, I had to pull the wool over her eyes.  As she came out from getting ready for school

"Oh Olivia, what's that that fell down under the table?"

She's got me all figured out, I can see it in her eyes.  We are both terrible liars.  But she wanted to believe me so very badly that she wore a huge smile

and let it make her day anyway.

Gosh, I love that kid. :]

All is well. I haphazardly saved the crisis.

She took her note to Show and Tell.

And Sebastian's been asking me to see if his teeth are wiggly all day.

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.Deactivate

Everything in Moderation.

 If we all would abide by this incredibly healthy and helpful piece of advice... well... we would probably all be more healthy, and helpful.

As much as I thoroughly enjoy keeping up with people, hearing about their successes, being invited to pray and meditate them through a stressful situation, keep up to date with who is having babies and birthday parties, have first knowledge to shows I will find myself front row at, etc etc. I have to take a step back.  This winter season has brought a lot of concentration on myself. Healing and helping myself so I can be a healer and help others.  Being absolutely positive I am getting the most out of each day, celebrating the tiniest moments with my beautiful family.  Nothing is more positive and healthy than that.

I love nothing more than communication with all of my friends and family.  Everyone lives their own lives and sharing it with others from a distance can be time consuming and difficult. I'm desperately trying to eliminate the unnecessary stressors out of my day, but hope to not lose closeness.  So join me in this space, give us a call or come share our space at home! But for a period I'm going to leave facebook and all it's busyness and focus on some very exciting things... in real life :].

Enjoy your moment. Embrace the quiet. Manifest peace. Just Be. 

Love, C

                                                                                                                            

.2013

How 2012 whizzed by without me noticing, I'll never know. Just left the dust swirling in it's trail, and me running to catch up.

I hold a lot of stock in this year, and not letting it slip by. It seems something monumental has happened every year since about graduation.. last year we just lived, which is absolutely okay with me.

For the latter part of 2012, I had focused on the wrong things.  Well, maybe not wrong, but out of order in general.  I've always said I need change, I embrace change. 

Truth me told? I'm a liar.

Change scares me shitless.

I do enjoy the thought of it, but it's the process that terrifies me

Revamping Now. Changing myself, before I worry about demographics, careers, etc.

The big stuff can come later, because

the small stuff needs attention now.

Like rides on the new bikes.

And door to door girl scout cookie sales.

And long conversations with friends

Yoga and meditation.

Loving and Passing it On.

Paying it Forward.

Dates on the Couch with my husband.

The rest can wait.

[[Worry Less. Stress Less.]]

Drink more water.

Stretch Daily, both in body and Mind.

Live each day wholly.

Give adequate attention where needed.

Careful not to squander precious hours.

Leave guilt and regret.

Choose Happiness.

And don't apologize for it.

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C

.Christmassy

Tis the Season!

To breathe a huge sigh of relief that Christmas is over.
That's sad.
But so, so true.

Christmas means lots of family, which is amazing!  But with Tony and I both having split parents, it means a lot of celebrations to squeeze into only a few days off, and inevitably there will be people we do not see [ie: Tony's Dad, Nanny and Aunt in MN]. But, we did our best, went into debt, and totally won the "best Christmas presents" award (we awarded each other... yes, we were that proud).  The kids had a wonderful time.  They got their bikes on Saturday and got to ride around on a beautiful, sunshiney, 57 degree day.  Three days later it was Christmas and we got snowed in at the in-laws. Olivia got the flu bug Saturday night, and I on Monday night.. meaning that I spent Christmas hurling in a trash can in the guest room having delusional dreams and aching to no end. I got up long enough in the morning to watch the kids open their gifts and long enough in the evening to make it back to my scared little spot on the couch to watch Full House Christmas episodes. Sad but true.
Monique and Judah came in on Saturday, and Adam and Kristen came down, too.  It was a total sibling party and my heart hasn't been that happy in a while.  We have the coolest siblings.

Being the sickly one I was and lacking a camera, Judah and Mo got all the gift giving pictures and will have to be added in later.  I know there was so good'ens though.

The holidays snuck up this year, and I totally wasn't prepared.  Cannot make this mistake again. No ma'am.. too much stress.

Now its [sorta] back to work, back to making a little money so we can play more.

Tony and I have huge plans for 2013.  It will be the best yet!

 Bike operations

 Playing with Uncle Adam.

 Auntie Mo is home!

Kids writing Santa a letter :]

 55+ Christmas weather means trampoline time with Papa! 

 Resurfaced after the 24 hr flu

 White Christmas!

.Seven

Oh my, Little Livi... look how big you are!

Seven.. GOSH! So old! First of all my little princess, let me tell you how PROUD I am of you.  You have gone through many things in your young little life and have come out of each situation unscathed and ready for what's to come.  I tell everyone this, but your outlook on life and your positivity is something to be admired.  You never have a bad day.  I learn so much from you and really stop to take in your intoxicating zest for life!  You are such a special person.  You are a sponge and I love when you ask me to explain something to you.  You told Sebastian yesterday "Sebastian, you're the smallest. And I'd KILL to be 4 again.. no worries, school wasn't hard and you just get to play all day. Enjoy it, Bubby." I laugh so hard.. but who could you be mimicking?? ;].  You have taught me to choose my words with caution because you never know when they will be repeated or taken completely to heart.  You're a little talker and could probably talk an entire day straight without stopping.  You love Avacados, Tomatoes, Caesar Salad and other delicious foods most 7 year olds are missing out on.  You are wise beyond your years and you are incredibly TALL!  You learned to ride your bike this year and are so very proud of yourself.  You broke your arm in July, and grew it "back together" miraculously fast.  I think you are super-girl!  There is a million things I could rant and rave about you, but I will say this : Thank You.  Thank you for being a part of my life.  Thank you for Loving me unconditionally.  Thank you for being a wonderful sister to Sebastian.  Thank you for keeping the sparkle in your eye and never letting anyone get you down.  I look up to you, little lady.


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.Modify

So quite some time ago I posted I would be going back to school this year. And a year before that, I probably posted the same. It saddens me to say neither happened:(. I had full intentions of using my pell grant money to snatch up that OTA degree. Turns out, it is one of oh, four degrees that the state won't fund. Why? I never got to the bottom of that. Well I still went through the application process, funding process, all that jazz.. But then found out that of I wanted to further my education and get my masters in Occupational Therapy (which was the end goal) that none of this schooling would go towards it. Lame. Lame. Lame!!! So, the way I see it, it's go big or go home. Now I am all for setting my goals high and jumping in, but that is a HUGE financial issue. All that DEBT. That's what school screams to me. I desperately wish education wouldn't put people in the hole for half of their career.. What a scam! The whole thing makes me kind of sick. I'll dish out that money.. When I find something I just know I am called to do.  Dont get me wrong, OT would be a fantastic field for me to go into, and I truly believe I would enjoy it.. How do I know it's what I want to do with the rest of my life? Or should I say, until my loans are paid? That being said.. I put off school yet again.  I was bummed about that, but decided I would substitute at Sebastian's school this year. I filled out all the forms, got my fingerprints and background check, yet again.. Spent my money, got my sub certificate.. And the only thing I lacked was my transcripts that Tech was supposed to send off at thebeginning of August. I didn't realize they hadn't until a few days before the deadline.. Needless to say they didn't get it there in time. I got approved 5 days after the deadline :( I'm am so upest!! Figures.. I paid to go to college to get a good job. And once graduated, my college prevents me from getting a job using my degree.. That I paid for.
So. Back to the drawing board. I'm swamped as it is bonding, serving, property managing, and the occasional PI job.. But I am still ready to move onto something I'm really passionate about.
As I'm feeling all these doors slamming in my face.. Here comes an open window. I got hooked up with an awesome production crew filming a movie here locally. Im going to be working with make up and FX and be an extra in the film. I'm so excited  this opportunity presented itself. It's come at just the right time. I needed a new project, and for it to be in Theatre? Oh man, this girl is in heaven.
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.Grind

Back to it!

My dell finally fried [may have mentioned that?] which leaves me little to blog with.  When I'm at working, there's always work to do and I never get my blog on, which I am missing.  Going to really try to keep up. 

I cannot believe how fast September has travelled.  It's already the end, and wasn't it just the first?  Funny thing with time, as always.. but it is more much too rapidly for my tastes.

September has been a beautiful month.  Ringing in Autumn this past weekend and the weather is absolutely gorgeous.  We went on our first family camp trip the first of September in Yellville, AR on the Buffalo River.  My bestie and her hubby made the trip up to camp with us a night [have I mentioned how much I love this lady??] It was such a great weekend.  I love these mini vacations when there is absolutely nothing [important] to do even if you wanted to.. so we sit, relax, enjoy, eat, laugh and sleep.

                  {Besties!}

So, aside from attempting to relax and enjoy the few seconds of downtime we have, the rest of life is B.U.S.Y, just flat out so.  The kids are really loving school, Olivia is in a full day of school and Sebastian goes half a day.  The other half of the day he is whining about not being in school.  I absolutely LoVe the fact my kiddos love school.. but I really just need Sebastian to be a full day, because he loves it THAT much! Ha!  They are so busy themselves it is so hard to keep up.  Olivia has homework and is supposed to read 20+ books at home each month.  I think it is great her teacher requires this, reading is SO important!  Thankfully, Olivia is the top reader in her class! She is such a bright girl, I am so proud of her!! Unfortunately she has had a few issues in school this year. They have ranged from not completing work, interupting, being disorganized, talking out of turn, talking to neighbors and disrupting them, and talking talking talking! She is just a little chatterbox! She is a smart girl though, I know she will figure out school life is much more fun when not in trouble with the teacher :]  Oh! And I haven't posted those back to school pictures, yet. Here they are, making their lunches for the first day. My, they have gotten SO. BIG!!!

ANNNDDDD here they are! Excitement!!

We have implemented a "schedule" at home to help with some "spaceyness" and forgetfulness at home.  It also helps to keep the kids on task at home for organization.  Something we ALL struggle with, no doubt about that.  I wish so desperately I could say my home is spotless with everything having a place.. let me tell you, thus is NOT the case [though if I can get it to this point, I will be one. happy. mama.]  With two kids, and Tony and I working full time, life is hectic.. cleaning isn't always on the top of the list. 

Speaking of, Autumn is always my "feel good" time.  A time to clean space, a time to get myself back to being ME.  Over the past six months I have been distant from myself and my goals as I would love to achieve.  Now is the time to put the excuses, worries and procrastinations aside and go out and DO it, BE it, LIVE it and LOVE it. Cannot wait to share with you all :]

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