.Sometimes

Sometimes.. your life and all that surrounds becomes full.
Sometimes... your outlet is at the very bottom on the to-do list.
Sometimes... you can't find the words.
So... sometimes.. you steal a survey [myspace style, baby!] from your cutesy friend Amy and go with that. :]

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A. Age: 23

B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore that you hate: Hanging up laundry & scrubbing toilets/tubs. Blech.

D. Dogs: are fabulous.  Their loyalty and understanding is amazing!

E. Essential start to your day:   Low Acidity Coffee & two hugs from the babes :]

F. Favorite color: I'll never pick just one. I have scheme's I like best. Mustard yellow/burnt orange/teal .... pink/orange/yellow...

G. Gold or Silver:  White gold!

H. Height: 5 ft 7 1/2 in.  Doctors told my parents I would be over 6 foot.. yeaaah I'm happy that didn't work out.

I. Instruments you play: Flute, piccolo, piano.. a little guitar

J. Job title: Mommy. Bail Bondsman. Office Manager. Civil Process Server. Private Investigator. House Cleaner. Driver.

K. Kids: My step daughter is 5 and my son is 3 :]

L. Live: Near Springfield, MO

M. Mother’s name: Pamela but she will kill you if you use it.

N. Nicknames: Crysta L, Tristle, CMarsh, Latsyrc

O. Overnight hospital stays: After Sebastian they held us hostage for a few days...

P. Pet peeves: People who prompt, but won't ask flat out..Society and it's silly rules, the way I ALWAYS roll up a few hairs in the window of my car.. look right & owww!!

Q. Quote from a movie: "It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that"

R. Right or left handed: Right normally, but I come prepared.

S. Siblings: 2 older brothers and an older sister.  My family is a hodgepodge and I love it.

U. Underwear:  The Lacie by Vickie's Secret. So. Damn. Comfortable!
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V. Vegetable you hate:  Mustard Greens. I can eat almost any vegetable raw. Once you cook it, I'm super picky.

W. What makes you run late: Two children under 5. And another who is 25... I hate being late! But no matter HOW prepared I am to get out the door... these three... I swear.... ;]
 
X. X-Rays you’ve had: Hmmm Lungs, Arm, Ribs, teeth of course.

Y. Yummy food that you make:  Bring on the sweets! I'm the baker, Tony's the chef.

Z. Zoo animal: Giraffes.They are incredible and seem so gentle! Lions as well, I like to think that it's not my fault I just wanna lay in the sun, stretch and sleep all day, too.

.Patience

Patience.. Patience.. Patience...

It's my mantra.

It's the only word I seem to know these days.

Life has taken yet another turn to a place I never knew existed, but it's amazing how I fit right in.

I am continually blessed by this world around me.  I am slowly but surely carving out my way, using myself and my soul as a guide, as well as the other three beautiful pieces of my soul that teach me daily.  I'm so in love with this family of four we have built.  We have become one unit, one foundation.. constantly leaning on one another, holding each other up with the love, compassion and support.  It is amazing to see the love resonate from this house, the house Olivia tenderly calls "the Only Benedict House", and there is nothing quite like it.  My heart lifts being here.. my soul has taken flight!

I must enjoy the past but never dwell, it's a place I can get lost.

I must have Patience as life unfolds and only live in the moment.

I must have the knowledge that whatever may come, will come, and as long as I have Benedict's 1, 2, & 3.. that's all I need.



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C

.Sillies

Once again, life has gotten too serious.  Between work demanding constant attention and living the life of a full blown school Mom.. my brain is shot.  Lately I started harboring feelings and ending up feeling more or less numb, which is not me.  I am a person who lives and feels wholly, good or bad.
I have decided to take a step back and get in touch with my roots. Which is just Living Simply.  I'm trying to clarify my mind and help myself with the transitions of Real World and Home Life.. but even this proves difficult.  My job and everything surrounding my life outside of my home is not easily presentable to kids.  I work with inmates and their families daily.  Attornies and their clients.  Even the dirty end of the law, the clients who run.  There is nothing good to be said about that breed.. and is the farthest thing from what I want my children to grow up to know.  I'm very honest with my kids (at this age, Olivia) in what I do.. but have to keep it to a minimum because it's hard to explain to a 5 year old why I get the "bad guys" out of jail.
So this is what I am struggling with, but I know I can find the Balance I need.
I've taken to constant music therapy, yoga, books books and MORE books.. for both me and the kids, and just plain acting silly.  My kids want ONLY to play with me, 100% of the time.  At the end of a looong day, it's hard to muster the energy to be the gnarled dragon in her fairytale, or the tickle monster hiding under his bed.  But you know, when I do just let it all go and surround myself with their innocent minds and their fervent imaginations, I feel instantly better. These two are amazing beings of their own, and the passion and excitement they have for life is exuberant and fabulously inspiring.

Thank you babies, for continuing to teach me wonderful things I haven't had the opportunity to learn. You are incredible!

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